Chap 6: Why? Because Y is a crocked letter.....

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27th of February 2008 8:48am....

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Daddy, my daddy, I can’t believe it, how could he just… I broke down crying as soon as Aunty Tessa got that phone call in the kitchen, as soon as she began crying I knew, my father had just died, I turned and looked at Raven and Souxie as soon as they saw the tears in my eyes they broke down crying as well I said I’d be strong, but I just couldn’t, I couldn’t hold them up anymore, I walked out the front door and hit the brick wall, my hand started bleeding, I didn’t care at the time I was too upset, how could he just leave me, leave us, the only person I could think of calling at that time was Izzy, we had gotten close in the passed few years, but I called Izzy again that morning, the first call was that I told her that my dad is down the street and had a heart attack then when I called again her mum and younger sister as well as her were down the street with my dad along with Aunty Marcia, Aunty Dawn and Aunty Violet they left when they found out but Aunty Tessa stayed with us, I was so tempted to run to the shops to hug him and tell him not to leave, he has a home and a family and if he died I would die inside, but I thought against it because I knew my sister and brother would have followed me, so instead I prayed to god, please let my daddy live, let him see mum and Nana Isis for a minute, but let him come back, please don’t let him go im begging you so that he’ll open his eyes with a little more time to tell him that I love him more than anything in the world, Father Father! I pray to you. ....

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1st of March 2008 11:47 pm ....

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That was the first time in years I’d prayed and cried that much, why, why was it daddy what had he done wrong? What had I done to deserve all of this, I hugged my brother and sister scared that if I let go I’d lose them to, I never want to feel that pain again ever, in 3 days it’s daddy’s funeral another one, in the same stupid week 3 funerals that’s just wrong plain wrong!, I feel like im going to go crazy!, wait a min...Deiramie he wanted to tell me…oh god, I could have stopped it, I could have not let him leave the house I could have, I could still have him with me, he would be safe and happy and not dead!, ‘rincess, you wouldn’t have been able to stop it, if he hadn’t of died like that it would have been bloody murder, Princess I love you an don’t want to see you sad I would hurt anyone that tried to hurt you, and I can’t wait till we meet face to face’ it’s him ‘Deiramie, im so sorry, I should have listened to you I shouldn’t have argued i…i…’ I began to cry for the 7th time that day, ‘Shhh, Princess im here it will all be okay, you won’t hurt anymore’ and as soon as he had said that I felt like I was being hugged and I never wanted to leave the warmth he gave me, ‘Deiramie, I can’t wait until…i…meet you…face to face…’ I drifted off to sleep I was so tired from crying ‘Don’t ever worry Princess I’ll forever be here until the day you die, ill protect you.’....

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4th of March 2008 3:54pm....

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It’s the day, that day that I don’t even what to describe, we just arrived at the tavern after daddy’s…yer, so It was all crying and hugging and crying and hugging and I saw daddy in his coffin he wore the suit he wore to mummy’s funeral with those stupid sunnies on his head and he just looked so peaceful with a Collingwood football and pictures of the family but when I saw him I burst into tears Soxuie, Raven and I put 3 red roses on him Raven’s and Soxuie’s where on either side of daddy’s arms while mine ran across he’s heart I still can’t believe he’s dead even though I saw him in his coffin, I wish this were all a bad dream…but the questions that still remains is where are we going to live, what’s going to happen, who else am I going to lose, and what if he did this, what would I do, would I still love him?....

Chap 7:Chishio Kyuuban .....

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..This chap is dedicated to my good mate joey cuz he's dieing of suspence lol love ya Scribe..

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....4th of March 2008 11:45pm....

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Sydney, we are moving to Sydney with our Aunty Dawn, I was speechless I didn’t know what to say, I didn’t want to go to Sydney but what say did I have in this I mean this is what Daddy would of wanted, he told me if anything happens to him we’ll be going to Sydney, but why? Why now I don’t want to leave this place, I don’t want to leave that house, it means so much to me, but here I am sitting in the cabin my aunts hired out, being told im moving to Sydney, “Mina are you okay?” Aunty Dawn asked I just looked at her blankly and said “Yer im fine im just tired from all the crying I think I’ll go to bed.” She looked at me weirdly “Okay Mina sweet dreams Dad and Mum love you” if I could have I would have bit her head off, I never want anyone other than Daddy to say those words, I nearly glared daggers at her but in the end I decided not to thinking better of it, I just climbed into the bottom buck while Souxie was on top of mine and Raven was on top of Souxie’s it was a 3 bunk bed thing I’ve never seen one in my life until then it was awesome but I wasn’t in the mood to be yelling over cool things like I normally would, I just laid down in bed not wanting to go to sleep but not wanting to stay awake either, ‘Mina, do you want to talk?’ oh god it was Deiramie, he is my Knight in shining armour even if he’s in my head ‘Yes I do, I feel terrible and I want to know why this is happing to me?’ ‘Mina I must tell you something but I know you will never speak to me again after I do’ he had me scared maybe he did kill my dad as well, just like he killed my mum, ‘go on’ I urged ‘Mina i…I’ he’s never stuttered or stumbled on his words before, what does he need to say? ‘Mina ill tell you about my kind’ as soon as he said those words I was intrigued ‘No one knows where we came from only that we arrived around the time that humans did. Their leader was Zaniaz, and he claimed to be a savour, one of Gods ‘helpers’, There could be some truth in that for it is mentioned in some of the unknown records that god had an helper by the name of Zaniaz and that he roamed through the world taking peoples lives but draining them of blood. Nevertheless he had followers, creatures known as Vantineons. Perhaps they went crazy over the power they held over mere humans but that was until one Vantineon was distant to love a human and when he did meet her, he killed her mother because she accepted them together even if she was petrified of him, he wanted her so much to hate him because of what he was, so they began to kill more, no longer the old and sick but on the young and vulnerable abusing their powers, to please themselves, to rule. Anxious to shield his creatures God sent down the Hunters they where called Vectors, they hunted and killed the Vantineons until Zaniaz was the one of the only ones left ,but it was to late he had breaded with a human, and then this created my kind.’ ....



‘Battles began, lives where lost. The human race began dying out, they called this time of ‘Chi Kuro Ages’ people began to refer to them as ‘Chishio Kyuuban’ and feared for there lives. Soon the hunters began to die out, in a desperate attempt to keep the blood line they inter married with humans creating the next generation of hunters.’....



‘The world began to settle into normal as the Vectors and the Vantineons fought silent battles against each other, as time passed different blocks of Vantineons began to rival each other on who was ‘True Blood.’ The ‘ure Bloods’ who wanted to show that they were ‘Blue Blood’ tried to prove them selves to the ‘True Bloods’. Humans had no idea this was going on right under there noses, but then the True Bloods turned in to insane creatures that had gone insane for blood, unable to feel anything or understand anything beyond the taste and craving for blood.’....



I was lying in aware the whole time not believing what I was hearing but at the same time knew it was all real he need to keep going ‘wow, what happened to the Vectors?’....



‘The Vectors began to create a type of social equality one built on power and strength while the other was tactics and weaknesses, as the Vantineons slowly but surely killed off the original 16 clans. Desperately to protect them, the Vectors Elders began to try and find them, it became a race against time. The Elder known as Misian sent her best Vectors they where known as F.E.L.E.L to keep Ventineons numbers down. Because of its secretive nature very few found them unless they knew about the ‘Chishio Kyuubans’. That was the way the shield on headquarters worked and although it was hard Misian had to admit they where fighting a losing battle against the Ventineons.....



Things where getting desperate, everyone began to fear the return of the Ventineons and then Misian heard news she had been longing to hear. All but six of the clans had been found, all but six F.E.L.E.L ‘s were called back, and the others had no time to morn the lost of those six. But one of those Ventineons is my relation.’ I waited hoping he’d finish but he didn’t so I had to ask ‘who was it?’ at that moment eyes flashed through my mind, bright red eyes? I had no idea what was going on but I sure was hell scared, ‘Deiramie, whats…whats going on I saw bright red eyes…Deiramie are you still there?’ it was silent for a few minutes ‘You saw bright red eyes? Did you see anything else?’ ‘no’ I sniffed I was scared ‘Shh, Princess it’s alright, I still have to finish what I was going to say’ I waited he understood and began talking again ‘The Ventineon I am related to is…’....



Chap 8: That Blood, His Teeth, Her Scars....



i do NOT own any lyrics in my story



5th of March 2008 12:17am....

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‘Mina im related to…Zaniaz, and my brother killed your father.’ I was speechless I couldn’t reply or anything, I didn’t want to believe it, when I thought I knew, I knew nothing, can they hear me shout?, crying through my head, my heart and my eyes, I lied there speechless and I think this will be the last time im ever going to talk to him. ‘I understand if you never want to talk to me again’ I tried to find my voice to reply ‘why?’ ‘Your father caught my Brother when he was…thirsty.’ I sat in silence and did not reply and he understood, I think, I slowly fell into a sleep like state.....

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Mina’s Dream....




‘What I'm thinking now, when I take you, we can hold these thoughts I have of you till it comes.’

He stared at me through the bushes of the forest, red…red blazing eyes staring at me from those bushes.



‘But now it's over I'm calmer her crimson Flowing, down like water, I saw her as she hit the ground.’

He watched me in slow motion hit the ground after he attacked, im pail, im dead, im… drained of life.



‘What I'm thinking now, when I stumble down, we can never say that you are gone till it comes.’

When he came at me I felt, happy, because I would see them again, but I was also sad that I wouldn’t see the others again, but in all I was acceptant about what had happen.



‘There's no more ways to show you, I wanna love you now. With every ounce of anger, in turn we know you're going down.’

Love is that really what I felt for him? Or was it the fact that his family have slowly destroyed my life? As I look at him as I lay here dead, my heart never to beat again, my destiny to be dammed to this kind of life? The one I have lived for 15 years and this is what had to become of me? The anger burns but I just can’t hate him the way I should, but I know that he has given everything in his power for me…why?



5th of March 2008, 8:28 am ....

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I woke up with a start and hit my head on the top bunk, and fell back down onto the bed, what had I just dreamt of? Did my imagination just conger up a fantasy? Do I want that to become a reality? Was that him saw…in my dream? I heard Souxie move above me and I stoped and listened, after a while I heard her light snoring again so I was okay “Mina?” I froze, “Mina?” it was just Raven so I relaxed and whispered back “yer?” “just seeing if your awake” I nodded, not that he could see, but I did anyway, after a while I got out of bed a prepared for the long day ahead, today was the day we leave for Sydney...by car. ....

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5th of March 2008, 5:48pm....



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We have been in this bloody car for ages now and im not happy, were stoping at another place but this time it was Maca’s I turned my head and rolled my eyes not wanting Aunty to see, Souxie and Raven jumped out of the car and ordered Souxie got a ChocoSouxie (Chocolate sundae) that’s what we called them because Souxie would always order one every time we’d go to Maca’s , and Raven got a Cheeseburger, I ordered a 50c cone and a box of Cookies, only cause I like dipping the cookie in the ice cream, it tastes good we sat outside and watched the sunset while eatting our sweets, the view look even prettier due to us sitting on a hill, the sky turned a orange and yellow to a purple and blue from that it turned and light blue to a darker blue then the stars slowly apeared, but I really wished I had someone special to enjoy this with, ‘hey, are you there?’ “hey…hey Deiramie are you there?’ I tried again, but to my surprise all I heard was…




Chap 9: In a Perfect World, This could never happen.....

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..Dedicated to Mellisa Martin for her 17th bday on the 27th of dec..

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25th of March 2008, 2:37pm....

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Nothing… for 20 days I have heard nothing from him, I miss him I want to know what made him leave, I want to… *Ring* and there’s the phone I picked up my phone and read the caller id, I smiled it was Anema Redkill so I answered it, then my smiled turned into a frown “Mina *sniff* it’s Anema umm… I just found out, you know how Sam and Ben were on there way to ....Sydney.... to pick you up and bring you back down so we could all live in house together?” “yes” I muttered I had no idea where she was going with this, “Well,” she took a breath “They had been hit by a truck early this morning.” I froze, there is no way that could of happened, “Omg, Anema are you okay?” she began to cry and I couldn’t help but want to hug her, because she just lost her boyfriend and his best friend, “Anema how… how did it happen?” she sniffed “Well they left late last night and then the truck and then ben was in hospital, and…” I didn’t need to hear anymore I understood what had happened, “And there funerals are in America so I can’t go” she began crying again so I started with soothing words telling her it was going to be alright, even though we both knew it wasn’t, she eventually hung up and I broke down in tears, another death, that I couldn’t do anything about, what if another part of his family had gotten to them? What was I going to do im starting school next week, my Aunty Marina has taken my brother so now he lives with them, and now its only Souxie and I with my Aunty Dawn and her youngest daughter Carmen who is 21 by the way, and all of us live in a small 2 bedroom unit, Souxie and I share a bedroom Aunty sleeps in the lounge room and Carmen has her own room, and the worst part is this place is infested with cockroaches and I had never seen one until now, how I was home sick, and what made it worse was I hadn’t spoken to him since that day, im tired so I layed on our (mine and Souxie’s) mattress on the floor awaiting the day I go to school again. ....

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Mina’s Dream....

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‘I never could’ve seen this far, I never could’ve seen this coming, seems like my world’s falling apart.’

He was whispering the words I left unspoken, the words I would never say aloud for anyone to hear.

‘Why is everything so hard, I don’t think I can deal with the things you said
it just won’t go away’

Why? What had his brother been thinking when he had done it? But when he told me… I don’t think I can deal with life anymore.

In a perfect world, this could never happen, in a perfect world, you’d still be here’

Daddy…

‘I used to think that I was strong, until the day it all went wrong, I think I need a miracle to make it through’

My miracle was you.

‘I wish that I could bring you back, I wish that I could turn back time, cuz I can’t let go, I just can’t find my way, I don’t know what I should do now, I don’t know where I should go, I’m still here waiting for you, I’m lost when you’re not around, I need to hold on to you, I just can’t let you go.’

Who was this about? Daddy or him?

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22nd of April 2008, 8:47am....

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Here I am waiting in the reception for my ‘Buddy’, I hate changing schools, I still hadn’t talked to him, and I was getting depressed, and sick a lot more. This Blonde girl walked up to me she wasn’t ultra thin but she wasn’t overly fat either she had blue eyes and not much of a tan for living in Sydney, I was tanner than her and im a Melbourne girl, despite the fact im like ¼ Aboriginal, “Hi my names Victoria, and welcome to Narrabeen Sports High, I’ll be your buddy for the school.” I looked at her and wanted to slap her, but I didn’t only because this is a “New start” as Aunty Dawn keeps implying so I spoke to her instead “Hi, my names Mina, im from Melbourne, so what do we do now?” she looked at me as to how forward I was, “well we can go get your sign in paper, and go around and get the teachers to sign it?” I really had no idea what we where meant to do so I just nodded, she began to walk so I followed, we walked into the “rint room” as it said on the door and Victoria asked the man if we could have my timetable it took him nearly ½ hour to get it but I didn’t mind this wasted my time for doing anything school related, we then walked back to the office and had gotten my sign in sheet, we walked around chatting and that’s how my first day went, it was quite boring actually, I made it home before Souxie, she started school early April, I plonked on the mattress and just wanted to sleep but then my thoughts turned to him, what made him leave? Why won’t he talk to me? I thought he said we were meant to be? Why is this happening to me? Will I ever get to talk to him again? I froze ‘Mina, im here to say goodbye, I must leave you now, please don’t ask questions, just let this be a clean break.’ ‘Your going to leave? When will I see you again?’ ‘Mina I asked for a clean break, and I don’t know when I’ll see you again’ ‘but…’ then he was gone that’s how he left me.....

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Mina’s dream....

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‘Look into my eyes and what do you see?’

‘Black as night,’ ....

‘Your scared of me.’ ....

‘You should feel panicked,’....

‘You should feel afraid.’....

‘There is no reason for you to feel safe.’....

‘Watch yourself and don't turn your back,’....

‘For the skills to defend are what you lack’.....

‘An innocence beyond belief,’....

‘Oh how your death would bring me relief.’....

‘To taste your blood and end your life,’....

‘I will not need a sharpened knife.’....

‘For my weapons lie within myself,’....

‘A curse some call it, but I say wealth.’....

‘I may look tender,’....

‘I may look sweet,’....

‘But beware if I'm the one you meet.’....

‘Down a back alley in the pitch of night,....

‘I fill the world to the brim with fright.’....

‘One seductive grin, a little stare,’....

‘I beckon you, and you are there.’....

‘I dont answer the questions you pound me with,’....

‘All that I do is give you my kiss.’....

‘One little prick and you are mine,’....

‘I think your blood as if its wine.’....

‘Leaving you bearing the fateful mark,’....

‘I disappear into the dark.’....